Nelson & Spike

Welcome

2010-08-22T15:50:00.000-07:00

Welcome to blog that is dedicated in memory of my boyfriend Philip Nelson he's dog Spike and Philip's friend Roy Harries.
You can read My True Story about Philip in posts from 1-8 on left side.
You can see video and photos that I made in post Stars in Election Wars.
Or listen to some of the songs I have chosen to put here:

This Song I dedicate to my Tween Flame & GOD Our CREATOR
Thank You God For This Gift Of Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch7txUjCmiA

This beautiful song with message to See All Life Connected as One in Love and Respect Mother Nature
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbuzskVs6rc&feature=related

Next songs are dedicated to Politicians and Dreamers like Me;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okd3hLlvvLw&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MLsdJlfA23E&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQ_Zq_b4sBc&feature=related

Election Result in Stars

2010-08-22T15:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Hearts
Yesterday 7 September Julia Gillard become again PM for Australia. Today New Moon opens the door to New direction of current Goverment. I congratulate Labor Party, Green Party and Independants who have given support to this Goverment. I read in http://www.lunarplanner.com/ about this month theme. Here is smal part from this website:
The Lunar Month of September 8, 2010 - October 7, 2010
Creative Energy Must Express & The Earth-Jupiter-Uranus Synodic Synchronization
Lunar Planner Synopsis

Our New Moon of September 8, 2010 occurs in sidereal Leo and conjoins fiery and expressive Mizar of the Great Bear (Ursa Major), with adjoining Alcor, also of the Bear; and a dynamic Seyfert Galaxy in Canes Venatici. This is a windy and fiery area of the zodiak, one that can stimulate dynamic creative expression. Mizar of the Great Bear, the overseeing and predominant star, articulates raw fiery energy that must express one way or another. Mizar must have a creative outlet, but for its proper expression, we must apply it with creative vision. Mizar brings attention to use of our creative energies; creative and destructive tendencies, and the fear to create lest it may result in destruction. Here we learn the nature of such volatile forces. Mizar, with averted alignments is also known for catastrophic fires or massacres. Mizar can however express quite artistically--just as gunpowder can express as beautiful fireworks or devastating explosions. The expression of Mizar tends to express in a grand way, in character with showy and dramatic Leo.

This lunar cycle may stimulate expansive, radical, and perhaps spontaneous change. It should shift the emphasis from what has been a challenging and strenuous time to one of refreshing movement and expansion.
This lunar cycle may stimulate expansive, radical, and perhaps spontaneous change. It should shift the emphasis from what has been a challenging and strenuous time to one of refreshing wide-sweeping movement and expansion.

Interestingly this is also the location of the Uranus-Pluto synod that occurred in the mid-1960s. This was the time of the Vietnam War and the exact time of the emergence of the Flower Power Political Movement; also Pop Music.
In general, the revolutionary uprising and spontaneous force of Uranus synthesized with Pluto's intensified, disrupting, dismantling and opening force in the very depths of consciousness can produce an intense cultural rebellion that motivates a profound and radical transformation in collective consciousness.

• 1965 - Flower Power political movement emerges

• January 1966 - 190,000 U.S. troops in Vietnam

• January 1966 - The Uranus-Pluto Synod

• 1967 Flower Children "Summer of Love" in San Francisco

Uranus and Pluto produce a very long synodic cycle; our current one being about 47 years. We will be soon entering the first square (stimulus to action) of this 47-year cycle, with the (geocentric) square occurring from June-2012 through March of 2015. I will write a more in-depth article about the 1966 Uranus-Pluto synodic cycle and the upcoming Uranus-Pluto square when the square approaches.
This lunar cycle also embodies the "Earth-Jupiter-Uranus Synodic Synchronization" (the alignment of the Sun, Earth, Jupiter, and Uranus); occurring on the Full Moon Equinox. Jupiter and Uranus began their (geocentric) conjunction in June of 2010 and which continues into January of 2011. The Jupiter-Uranus synodic (heliocentric) conjunction, occurring now, in September, marks the ending of the previous 13.5-year Jupiter-Uranus synodic cycle, which began in March of 1997. It also marks the beginning of a new 13.5-year cycle, with an entirely new theme....
...this synopsis continues on the The Lunar Planner Home Page
For an in-depth stellar exploration of this Lunar Cycle and the planetary cycles ahead, visit The Lunar Planner.
The stars would not be in the heavens if we were meant to walk in darkness.

Our Australian Election was held on Saturday 21 August a day after Mercury went reverse. And it produced same unresolved outcome of Election as it did in England. Julia Gillard is still PM until the results will be known soon.

The media is making it very hard for Julia this is the the influence of Pluto's power of the hidden rulers. Pluto was squaring both the new leadership supported by Jupiter Uranus conjunction and old Saturn conservative establishment. So it plays a role in this election game.

I hope that Julia will be able to be PM again and my guides are asking me to have faith but I understand that what serves the highest purpose will be manifested.

I was looking for clues at lunarplanner.com in this month theme to find how this situation will resolve.
Here are parts of what I found interesting:

The Full Moon occurs on August 24 in early sidereal Aquarius. The Sun also conjoins Orcus in early sidereal Leo. Thus the planetary alignment is Orcus-Sun-Earth-Moon. This alignment also aspects the Jupiter-Pluto-Saturn T-square. The Earth-Sun-Orcus alignment marks the mid-point of vision and realization in the current Earth-Orcus synodic cycle. Thus the day after this Full Moon may bring a fused revelation regarding the theme of this lunar cycle and the role of Orcus in our lives.

Although new to the astrological world and thus with an astrological influence not yet fully comprehended, based on Orcus' orbital parameters, Orcus addresses how we are applying our personal will for the greater well being of all humanity; how we are contributing to human society.
Orcus' nodal axis motivates the use of our day-to-day lives, our daily activity for soul's greater purpose on Earth. Orcus seems to express a quiet profundity, almost unnoticed as it serves us to get in touch with our deeper soul essence and purpose--the oaths of our souls--what we are really doing here on Earth.

The Disseminating Moon occurs on August 28 in late sidereal Pisces, less than two degrees from Eris, the Great Disrupter. Eris, a very slow mover, is deep in the belly of Cetus the technobureaucratic monster created by collective human consciousness. Eris has been conjoining Revati of Pisces and Baten Kaitos; which, I suggest, adds a significant dynamic to the dramatic disruption occurring in the global economy. See "Eris, The Great Disruptor, Revati & the Global Economic Crisis."

The Moon conjoins Revati, Zeta Pisces, one of the few principal stars of Pisces. Revati lies above Baten Kaitos the belly of ole' Cetus--the whale of human emotional experience. Revati literally means riches, money, wealth, and financial resources. Prominent alignments with Revati can indicate material wealth gained from participating in the dramatic psycho-emotional world of human affairs--where the bucks are. This zodiakal longitude is a couple of degrees to that of Baten Kaitos, the belly of ole Cetus, where the transformative process occurs while in the whale of human emotional experience.
This is also the exalted seat of Venus--bringing attention to the relation of the flow of abundance and living from the heart. Venus rules money and assets; and Venus (especially its retrogrades) dramatically influences the stock market, as is well known in astrological market forecasting.

Our Enif Full Moon and our Revati Demonstrable Moon suggests money and resources may play a significant role in this lunar cycle.

This specific pulsar beacon reminds us to use our intuitive capacity to discern when and how to apply our humanitarian capacity through the emotional and psychic weather of collective human consciousness and daily global affairs.
It also stimulates the need to make a definitive choice, to bring to completion any process of perpetual deliberation. In essence, a purging of mind is required, to move from diversity (fragmented) consciousness, which is driven by the mindsets of collective human consciousness, to the wholeness of essence consciousness, to participate from our individual soul-level truth, which is articulated by the star Deneb of Cygnus. It also expands us from the concept of personal family to soul family.

This is also fitting with the nature of Orcus--living true to one's soul oath.

The New Earth-Mercury Synodic Cycle

The Sun and retrograde Mercury conjoin on September 3 in mid sidereal Leo. Looking from the Sun, Mercury and Earth align in sidereal Aquarius, which defines this new 116-day synodic cycle's theme.

This is one of the purest areas of resonance in the ecliptic and one of the most fortuitous--the mid-point of sidereal Aquarius--the Angel Point of the Zodiak. Humanitarianism, altruism, and an evolved humanitarian-based society beyond conflicts based upon cultural, gender or religious differences are the hallmark of this zodiakal band.

This is also the ecliptical longitude of Orcus' perihelion (the closest point to the Sun in Orcus' orbit). Orcus' perihelion lies north of the ecliptic in Pegasus--partly that which reveals the nature of Orcus' astrological influence.

This is an apt and timely Mercurial theme as we move forward in our current timeline of planetary events. This new synodic theme will full engage as Mercury returns direct on September 12, in the following lunar cycle.

Election & Stars

2010-08-15T03:01:00.000-07:00

No one knows the future as it is just a possibility yet to be manifested. But there is a design a master plan for Earth and Humanity. There is also a Cosmic Clock that is expressed in our sky and some know how to read that clock. The Vedic calendar is based on actual movement of planets and stars and we are now in 5111 year according to that calendar. The Hindu Astrology based on Sidereal positions of planets and stars I recognise as true Cosmic Calendar. Every month I like to read about New Moon written on website:
http://www.lunarplanner.com/

I bring here parts from this month lunar planer that explain planetary scenario for Election Day.

Mobilizing a New Future-The Jupiter-Pluto-Saturn T-square

The Lunar Month of August 10, 2010 - September 8, 2010

Nick Anthony Fiorenza

Copyright © 2010 Nick Anthony Fiorenza, All Rights Reserved

This The Jupiter-Pluto-Saturn T-square

The exact Saturn-Jupiter opposition occurs on August 16, just after First Quarter Moon.
The exact Saturn-Pluto square occurs on August 21, just after the Gibbous Moon and just after Mercury begins its retrograde.
There will be many triggers to the T-square throughout this lunar cycle, as there were in the previous lunar cycle, but the primary finale of this event is marked by the Gibbous Moon / August 21 Saturn-Pluto square.
From then onward the T-square will start to dissipate. Keep in mind, however, that the energetic of this T-square and its effects continue to express throughout the entire lunar cycle.

Since I have discussed the nature of the Jupiter-Pluto square part of this T-square at length in the previous lunar planer, I will forgo repeating it here. If you wish to review it, you can find it here: The Jupiter-Pluto Square & the Jupiter-Pluto Synodic Cycle.

How this T-square Works

The Jupiter-Saturn opposition creates a tension of polarity, providing perspective between mobilizing and expansive Jupiter and constricting and conforming Saturn.
Alone this would seem like a stalemate between two giant forces. Oppositions serve us to gain "realization" regarding the polarizing forces. In this case, thanks to Pluto squaring both Jupiter and Saturn, we have a very dynamic stimulus for profound action and change in the very structure of our lives and in our consciousness.

The Jupiter-Pluto (90°) square creates an external stimulus to engage in mobilizing and expansive action. Jupiter and Pluto resonate quite well with each other. However this action may involve letting something go or die in the process. The Jupiter-Pluto square requires that we step off of our existing platform entirely before being able to step to another. We can not keep both feet in two worlds, and the step (action) requires profound trust. Thus, this action is, in a sense, a separating of the ways.

The Saturn-Pluto (270°) square creates an internal need to create change. The change is in regard to that which is established and concretized in our lives, whether physically or in the constructs of our consciousness. It requires a removal of the constricting limitations in our lives.

These two squares occur simultaneously, hence the T-square. The emphasis, or attention grabber, is Pluto, which may appear like radical endings or a very deep undoing. However, the important thing and the solution is found in the (Jupiter) action and (Saturn) change. We simply cannot move onward with the accelerating evolutionary transition at hand in our existing societal mode.

In the longer scheme of things, we are also shifting emphasis from the Saturn-Pluto square to the Jupiter-Pluto square. So this event occurring now hallmarks that shift--from the dismantling of our existing paradigm, to expansive mobilizing action.
Also keep in mind that Jupiter and Uranus have recently begun their conjunction, an allegiance of forces that inspire radical and expansive change, a massive breaking away from the conformity of the past, which continues throughout the year.

The Jupiter-Uranus synthesis will mobilize, magnify and expand upon the radical changes already occurring in our lives; and it inspires the expansion of higher mind, alternative thinking, and new discoveries and advances, especially in the arts and sciences.
In addition, the Jupiter-Uranus conjunction surrounds the start of an entirely new Jupiter-Uranus 13.8-year cycle (occurring in September 2010).

Another "key" to this T-square is Orcus (Pluto's compliment). Orcus, in sidereal Leo (Regulus), is semi-sextile (30°) to Saturn; inconjunct (150°) to Jupiter; and trine to Pluto. Orcus, working in harmony (trine) with Pluto, is creating an opportunity for growth (the sextile) with Saturn and stimulating a creative opportunity (the inconjunct) with Jupiter.
Thus we have motivation for maturing or graduating in our lives, via expansive action and willingness to change the structures of our lives.
Orcus, our key, motivates us to live true to our souls' deeper intent and purpose on Earth; and its placement with Regulus, invites living in our personal integrity, aligned within;
and for those so aligned to step forth in leadership. More about Orcus.

The asteroid Vesta adds an additional facet to this T-square as well. Vesta moves to conjoin Saturn during the peak of the T-square.
Vesta motivates us to get clear, focused and committed, and in this case to the changes required in our established paradigm--perhaps as well, to realign our focus and commitment in the process.

The Gibbous Moon

Attraction & Involvement

The 24-hour period just before the Gibbous Moon is a time of perseverance, of pushing through in the midst of the action quarter of the lunar cycle. The Gibbous Moon is when the pressure releases and we enter the Pollinating Phase of the lunar cycle, which begins a social and communicative time of magnetic attraction. This Gibbous Moon occurs on August 20 in sidereal Sagittarius;
also conjoining the North Lunar Node.Nunki, Sigma Sag, is the "Proclamation of the Sea." Nunki and Phi of Sagittarius, at the Archer's hand, mark the fletching of the Zen Archer's arrow. The fletching of an arrow is what causes it to spin and have stability in flight, making it possible for the arrow to accurately move through space to hit its target.
It is a point of stability, confidence, and attunement. Nunki inspires us to attune to and trust in the flowing waters of spirit substance, the underlying power of the galactic ocean of divine love.

Nunki teaches us to steer our intent with undaunted love, which is the guiding and stabilizing force used to direct the Zen Archer's arrow.
It is our capacity to invoke and access the power and confidence of divine love that enables our intent of purpose to manifest our heart's truth from the unified field of creative intelligence.Conjoining Nunki is the Coronet Star Cluster in Corona Australis, the Southern Crown protected by the Zen Archer.
Corona Australis, considered an auspicious constellation, had been in existence since time immemorial. It is associated with the "Laurel Crown," a sign of victory, as worn by the Greek god Apollo--and hence the name "Laureate." Just above the Zen Archer, lying along the Galactic equator, is Scutum, Galactic Shield of the Holy Cross, emblazoned with the Holy Cross symbol (the cross in a circle)--the symbol of the Earth's Precessional Cycle of the Holy Cross.
Scutum is "Defender of the Holy Cross"--the greater evolutionary fulfillment of the soul--that which the Zen Archer undauntingly lives, stands, and is willing to die for. In personal and practical terms, here is inspiration to live for, claim, and defend that which supports our greater evolutionary fulfillment.Mercury Retrograde

Mercury stations on August 20, just hours after the Gibbous Moon, as we begin to wind down the previous 116-day Earth-Mercury synodic cycle, and shift into the next, which will begin later in this lunar cycle.

The Time of Global Change is at Hand.What is the end of the World for some is a New World for those who realize it is.

STARS of Election WARS

2010-08-05T20:33:00.000-07:00

This month we have an Election so last week felt guided by spirit to do this project.

Playing with my son's toys I saw similarity in characters from Star Wars movie

with some Australian Politicians.

I took those pictures that express my political view

in a playful way that is not meant to hurt anybody.

So please accept my view with humor .

It's time let's bugi.....

Far, Far in Galaxy on a small planet Earth the battlefield of Australia a new episode of Election Wars is unfolding.

Here are the Stars of Election Wars.

May The Force Be With You Princess.

Under the eyes of Great Wise YODA Master

and Jedi Masters HAN SOLO and CHEWBACCA

and Jedi Master OBI VAN KENOBI

The Jedi PRINCESS LEIA

and brother LUKE SKYWALKER

Supported by C3PO

and R2D2

and WICKET

And more....

The Jedi Force is preparing to Battle the Dark Force

Their Masters EMPEROR PALPATINE and DARTH VADER

and current leader DARTH MAUL

Supported by GAMORREAN GUARD

and BOSSK

and TIE FIGHTER PILOT

And more....

The Election War Is On

My letters to PM.

2010-08-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

I share here some posts and letters I wrote to our Prime Ministers lately.

On 1 August I posted on COL:

Dear Hearts

On 21 August we will have an election again. Because Julia become PM by removing Kevin Rudd now it is up to people of Australia choose her or the opposition leader Tony Abbott. I hope that she will be reelected.The slogan for her party is moving Forward. I wrote and send her message on Facebook.

Here it is:

Go Julia, Go Forward!

Finally we have a PM that is intelligent, wise, clever and good looking.
Loving, warm, compassionate heart with joyful, happy smile on her face.
All this and much more that PM Julia Gillard is but Tony Abbott is not.
I feel that next election will allow her to become the ‘Mother’ for our Nation.
She will take care of the land and move forward in the job she was born to do.
Ps.
Julia was born on 29 September, Saint Michael’s day her guide & protector.
In Tropical astrology on that day the Sun was in Libra expressing balanc and justice.

Ruled by planet Venus gives her appreciation of art, beauty and grace. In true Sidereal astrology on that day the Sun was in Virgo expressing practicality.
Ruled by planet Mercury gifted her with strong mind to be a teacher and messenger.

There may be strong negative challenge from opposition on or around 30 July but

She has good planetary aspects to her Natal astrology chart on the night of election.

I liked Kevin Rudd he was very good PM but Julia Gillard will be better in that job.

Than I wrote in COL on 24 June 2010

Dear Hearts

Just last week I send letter of support to Kevin Rudd PM and within last 24 hours there was big change in Government. This morning first woman become Prime Minister of Australia than she was sworn in by another woman Governor General.
Our state and our country is now ruled by Female Power.
I knew that this may happen one day but truly I did not know that it will happen so fast.

I wrote in my post in 2007 that I felt that Julia will become PM in future.
Julia Gillard was born on 29 September so she was born on St Michael's day, I feel that AA Michael and the Solstice Power over Orion has also given Julia the Power to lead our nation into future .

I looked in her chart and in true position she was born when Sun was 12 degree in Virgo and her progressed Sun now is 1 degree in Scorpio.

Today transiting Mars was conjuncting her Pluto and transiting Sun was sextiling her Jupiter.

Julia has red hear and I see this as connection with Azazel Angel, but she is strong and very intelligent and will fight the big business and especially mining industry that does not want to part with their power and money.
Today it is a history in making in Australia. Loving you

In June 2010 I send this letter to PM Kevin Rudd

Submitted on 15 June 2010 Title:

Subject: You are the Best PM Mr Kevin

Comment:

Dear Prime Minister I joined your blog but can not see how I can say other than governmental issues there so I send you this email. I like to congratulate you on becoming our best Prime Minister and as the waters under your ship are unstable that will pass and by September you will be sailing on comer waters than. So hold on tight to your sails as the old parties will create a war during July.

You are our hero who was brought to cut loose the chains that other Liberal party was imposing on people. Your government is meant to bring innovative new ideas that are supported by Uranus Jupiter Conjunction but unfortunately the old Saturn power is getting Mars now on their side so the war they creating will be felt in July but that's the 'last dance of the Tyrans' they will break up so hold on strong your party and don't let them call earlier election, please. I like to share here what I wrote after your election in a forum on website:

Posted in COL on 26 Nov 2007

Dear one Heart
I presented last week in post about full Moon the planetary positions that were acting in universal play. It was an incredible to watch as this cosmic play was manifesting on Australian stage.
The election brought the change and after 12 year in office past PM Howard not only lost election but lost his seat that meant he no longer could be in the party. Heads were roiling into shreder from this party as the new was coming to place.

Our new golden boy PM Kevin Rudd fulfilled the mission of Perseus.

Again I got another prove that the planetary interpretations especially the sidereal zodiac from a Lunnar planner was spot on.
The fires in US , the election here and in another country where some leaders were returning to overthrow military regime.
All this confirms Jupiter new transit that just started in Sagittarius true sidereal position.

I like to share with you the election scenario that was written in the stars.On election night one thing become clear, Howard should have listened to his daughter who said’ ‘Dad you have chosen wrong day for election’.

Well that was his problem he lost his hearing a long time ago and was driven by his personal ambition and pride. The voice of Australia was not heard, he was out of touch with people.

His party was the voice of corporate Australia- ‘the monster’, making Australians into a slaves and robots, limiting freedom and choices.
Older generation had free education now we import doctors from all over the world. There are many young people who would become excellent doctors, engineers and other professions if they had opportunity for free higher education.
So the message from new PM Kevin Rudd- Education revolution -should be implemented as soon as possible by demolishing the university fees or making education affordable to kids from all walks of life. Opening new medical schools specialising in needed workforce personnel.

Howard and Rudd fate was written in the stars and you can read this in messages from a Lunar planner website. You can go to www.lunnarplanner.com and register to read the whole article about this month Lunar theme and much more.
Current new Moon started on 9 November 07 and is about ‘Relationships of Purpose’.

On election night the Full Moon was shining on Kelvin-‘Perseus’ mission, as he claimed his victory by cutting the head of Medusa monster.

Here I quote parts from this website:
“Relationships of Purpose

The Lunar Month of Nov 9, 2007 - Dec 9, 2007

Nick Anthony Fiorenza

Copyright © 2007 Nick Anthony Fiorenza, All Rights Reserved
Astronomical Myth is a "picture language," imagery that articulates the qualities of cosmic intelligence expressing throughout the greater heavens and through our lives. We are not separate from the greater heavens, from the stars and planets around us, or from our beloved Earth, but are intimate parts of this dynamic, continually unfolding heavenly symphony. This entirety is our cosmic consciousness, the totality of our being. To explore the greater heavens and the heavenly cycles is to explore that which we are--our embracing consciousness and our spiritual evolution.

The stars would not be in the heavens if we were meant to walk in darkness.

Please remember that the purpose of the Lunar Planner is to learn to live in the experiential awareness of the present. Although the material below can provide philosophical context for your personal experience, the New Moon is the ideal time to experientially "tune in" to get your personalized lunar month's theme. Then, consciously participate with the changing Lunar Phase Characteristics in the unfoldment of that theme in your daily life using the Lunar Calendar ”
“The Opening the Jupiter Pluto Synodic Cycle

Mobilizing and expansive Jupiter makes its third synod of 2007, this being the capstone and most significant of the three.

The first occurred with Ixion in May 2007 commencing a new 13-year Jupiter-Ixion cycle; the second was with Quaoar in late June 2007 commencing a new 13-year Jupiter-Quaoar cycle.

Now Jupiter and Pluto create a very significant synod on Nov 22-23 2007, commencing a new 13-year Jupiter-Pluto synodic cycle--"the climatic opening."

This expansive opening occurs in early sidereal Sag between Galactic Center and the Gate of God. It occurs in the midst of the Earth-Pluto synodic cycle, the second in sidereal Sag that began in June 2007. The very significant Earth-Pluto Galactic Center synodic cycle was presented in the June 14, 2007 Lunar Planner.

The last Jupiter-Pluto cycle began in December of 1994 (along with Ixion) in early sidereal Scorpio, in front the head of the Scorpio.

Thus the theme of this new 13-year cycle in early sidereal Sag is dramatically different than the 1994 Jupiter-Pluto cycle; and thus, the next 13 years will be dramatically different than the last 13 years.
Astrologically, Jupiter and Pluto synthesize quite well together creating a vital, expansive, and opportunistic opening, here for those embracing their spiritual initiations and the accelerating evolutionary energies, for those who are making passage across the event horizon of Galactic Center and the Gate of God--the parting of the waters is at hand.

To learn more about this very significant turning, see
"The Synodic Cycles of Pluto, Ixion & Quaoar with Jupiter, Saturn, and Nessus: A Historical Timeline & Astrological Exploration 1982 - 2020."

Full Moon Phase Characteristics -Vision, Enthusiasm, & Realization of the Theme

The Full Moon marks the culmination point in the lunar cycle, the climax, the point of excitement and celebration. The hours leading up to the Full Moon provide a time of "vision and enthusiasm." The time just after Full Moon is a one of "realization of the lunar month's theme," a time to kick back and relax, to allow our realizations to surface in consciousness.
The Full Moon occurs in sidereal Taurus on Nov 24.

Uranus completes its retrograde and returns direct in sidereal Aquarius a few hours before Full Moon adding an opportunistic dynamic for unexpected radical change.

The Full Moon conjoins Comet 17pHolmes and Mirphak, the primary star of Perseus, and the foot of Perseus including the intense X-Perseus neutron star
The Moon is about 4.5° north of the ecliptic and was passing through the Pleiades star cluster for a couple of hours preceding the Full Moon.
The Pleiades impart an initiating quality, that of seeding, of getting things going, of initiating action in the physical and business world specifically to manifest the "Vision of Aldebaran"--the establishment of the administrative and physical logistics that support our personal lives.
Our primary Full Moon star, Mirphak, Alpha Perseus, is quite fortuitous and embodies the totality and success of all that Perseus has been through in his initiatory trials with need and the personal power to now live his destiny. See the full story of Perseus and Royal Family.

The foot of Perseus (created by Atiks, Omi Perseus; Zeta Perseus; and the potent neutron star, X-Perseus) brings a powerful capacity to infuse the spiritual power gained from our initiations in life and to manifest our longer-term purpose and destiny in the physical world.

Here we are asked to realize and claim the true gift of the inner refinement that the past initiatory fires of life have catalyzed, and to accept that our trials had to precede stepping forth into our greater fulfillment and destiny. We now can realize with bold certainty the opportunity that the theme of this Lunar Cycle offers.

Comet Holmes' dramatic eruption in Perseus occurred in the last lunar cycle. Now, the Full Moon of Nov 24, 2007 significantly conjoins Holmes while retrograde Holmes and Mirphak conjoin in both ecliptical longitude and latitude. See the Path of Comet Holmes star chart.

What a significator! Comet Holmes illumines and accentuates this Mirphak Full Moon theme; and perhaps our need to rise-to the occasion as the hero Perseus does in his initiatory journey to claim the success and achievement that Mirphak embodies.
The realizations this Full Moon offers, whatever they may be for each of us, are of extreme significance.”end of quote
I hope you liked the visions presented here as it is my guiding force for some time.

I am 54 and every election I was hoping for end to Howard monster era.
Now I am looking for brighter future of unity & prosperity in Australia.

Sincerely Barbara

8- My posts after Brendan lost leadership.

2010-08-05T19:38:00.000-07:00

I like to share here some of my replays that I posted in another website COL

Dear One Heart
Today 16 September 08 has added new development to this saga.
Last night Full Moon was conjunct Uranus planet of unexpected change.

Well Brendan was not expecting this as it was in his 8 house of ending and new beginning.
He kind of resigned his position but was sure that he will be reelected this morning, but he lost and now no longer is leader of Liberal party.
That news is welcomed by me and now I know that I am moving forward with the story of Philip & Roy making it public news. Loving you

This replay I posted on 19 September 2009
Dear One Heart
I come back here to this post after another year has gone and new development for Brendan accrued.
I can see better now the purpose I was guided to write and post the information's about Brendan and about Philip.

I have not written the book yet, or I have not send this information to newspapers as I thought to do than.
As I written here a year ago Brendan lost his political position as the leader of previous conservative- Liberal Party which held power for 12 years before last election.

I never supported that party as it has been a force that works with rich and gives back to rich and puts ordinary people more in chains of slavery to big corporations.
That is why I was also writing those letters to Brendan when he switched from Labor party and join in Liberals in 1995.
He was driven for personal ego and got his Power status when he become leader of the opposition after last election.
But since last year when he lost his big job and become back bencher he's aspiration to become future Prime Minister was crushed.

I admit that my letters that I send to reporter may have played a role in that. I know that those letters were given to another TV reporter who was making program with current leader of opposition Malcolm and she must have showed them to him. He than used this information showing to some members of opposition so when the vote took place they elected the new Leader in fear that Brendan when exposed may bring further gloom to this Party.

But I did not taken it further and did not exposed letters in press but I kind of felt partly responsible for Brendan loosing his position but I also knew it served higher purpose.
Now exactly a year later and with the Saturn Uranus opposition here is the higher purpose in this saga of Brendan's carrier. He doesn't have idea that he had no chance to become Prime Minister especially representing Liberal party, they are going down and they will not win any near future elections.

Last month after his birthday Brendan announced his resignation from political arena and this week he finished his job in Parliament.

Next day just before New Moon there was news in TV that our current Prime Minister from Labor Party Kevin Rudd offered Brendan ex-Liberal a job as Ambassador to UN and NATO.
So finally Brendan is on the right track but not out of his Ego Power trip.

here is the news story you can watch and read also you can read it below:

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/national/864571/rudd-makes-nelson-his-man-in-europe

I may contact him and congratulate him as well as I feel guided to give him the fifth Anastasia book to read. I feel he may open more to spiritual side as his progressed Sun went now into his 12 house.

I still have his privet mobile number he gave me long time ago but I rung him only once many years ago. After that I never rung him again so don't know if this number will work. But if I am meant to contact him next week than I will find a way..... Loving you

News article from 17 September 09

The Rudd government will make Brendan Nelson its new high-level envoy in Europe, sending a signal that Australia is serious about the relationship.

Prime Minister Kevin Rudd announced on Thursday that Dr Nelson would next February become Australia's ambassador to the European Communities, Belgium and Luxembourg.

In addition, the former defence minister and Liberal leader will take on extra responsibilities as Australia's representative to the North Atlantic Treaty Organisation and the World Health Organisation.
The appointment is part of the Rudd government's efforts to boost Australia's relationship with Europe, which was seen as flagging under the Howard government.
Just months after winning government, Mr Rudd made a crucial visit to Brussels to illustrate the importance Australia attached to the relationship with Europe.

"(This appointment) will underpin the importance we attach to the relationship, at the economic, foreign policy level and, in terms of NATO, the security policy level," Mr Rudd told reporters.

Another consideration in Dr Nelson's appointment was the continuing challenges the coalition partners, mostly NATO members, were facing in Afghanistan.

"Having a representative in Brussels who is a former defence minister and who knows the political and policy terrain in Afghanistan well commended (Dr Nelson) for that position," Mr Rudd said.
Dr Nelson's past life as a medical doctor was a factor in the WHO role, which Mr Rudd said would be useful when dealing with global pandemics.
In his new position, Dr Nelson will be charged with selling the Rudd government's climate change policy.
While his views on an emissions trading scheme don't mirror those of Labor, Dr Nelson said it wouldn't be a problem.
"My job, obviously, will be to represent Australia's interests and the priorities of the Australian government," he said.
The announcement of the plum diplomatic role came on Dr Nelson's last day in federal parliament.
He will retire from federal politics at the end of this month after 13 years in the game.
Like Kim Beazley, who was named as Australia's next ambassador to Washington on Thursday, Dr Nelson has the relatively rare distinction of being appreciated by both sides of politics.
Mr Rudd said he had needed a person of "distinction and great experience" to undertake the important new role.
The government intends Dr Nelson to work closely with Australia's ambassador in Vienna to advance the nation's engagement with the Organisation on Security and Co-operation in Europe.
The OSCE works on issues such as arms control, counter-terrorism and conflict prevention and resolution.
Dr Nelson's colleagues welcomed his appointment.
Malcolm Turnbull, who succeeded him as Liberal leader, said Dr Nelson would bring the same "dedication and distinction" to diplomacy that he had brought to politics.
"After six years as a cabinet minister and a distinguished medical career before entering politics, Dr Nelson is well qualified for the appointment," he said in a statement.

Opposition foreign affairs spokesman Julie Bishop, who was Dr Nelson's deputy, said he was ideally suited to the new role.

"He is a person of great intellect and integrity and I have no doubt he will excel in this role," she said.

Another response I wrote on 20 September 2008

Yes I like your analogy to Leopards- and I wonder too.

But on a positive side I saw Brendan in that dream than together with me and Philip on that Golden shining Beach, so perhaps he was meant to do all those things and have experienced being in opposing Party.
Like the Saturn in opposition to Uranus in order to learn from the experience. Now starting new journey making new relations-Juno and brigs changes for the future working united together.

Saturn transit around zodiac is around 29 years, so in 1995 when Brendan was joining Liberals Saturn was conjunct Uranus( I am going to check this in Canopus).

Now Saturn in opposition starts new 14 year journey towards Uranus building new relationships on a wide world level.

As for Brendan he is on a mission and everyone deserves second chance (even if they stuffed up first) so I am willing to forgive his past misguided actions and support his future work but as you said watch his actions with interest.
Loving you

7- Replay to my post from friends.

2010-08-05T19:16:00.000-07:00

I like to share here 2 replayed in relation to my letters to Brendan.

Dear Basia

Are you prepared for two possible outcomes if the s*** hits the fan?

(1) Brendan could talk his way out of it;

(2) If the story appears in a way damaging to his reputation and political career he could seek to discredit you or in some way show that your story carries no weight. I don't know how he could do this, but with the weight of the recently defeated Opposition and Liberal Party behind him he could surely find ways. (He might play dirty.) Would you be prepared for this?

Lots of love from across the ditch
Music Heart

Dear Music Heart

I Love You, and I like that you are showing here the concern that would be obvious to all.

Yes I am aware of above you mention, especially as his sister Tracy is working for a law firm.

I know that he may try do what you said and actually he may came out of this and still be our future Prime minister. But I leave this to the universe to decide of his future.

There is reason that is higher, remember I said I dreamt of 3 of us being in Gold Light on the beach.
And my motto' Its not wining or loosing but how the game is played'.

I could do all this and not post it here but I need to follow my inner as it is for higher reason I may not be fully aware yet.

If you like you can copy all this now into your computer as it may be wiped out in the future.

My guides said to me that I have chosen in this life do things with courage, and they said that my soul is very courageous.

Maybe I am beginning to express more of this nature of my soul. I was shown situations in the past that I shown courage holding strong to my believes knowing that it could end my life.

There is bigger picture that I am becoming aware and I just play my role as I feel guided to.

Dear Music Heart remember Joseph said; we are actors playing those roles we judge the role actor is in. So lets see how this will play itself out.

The reporter send me email that he will read all information, last night.

Philip wants me to put here another post as he wants to show that he was a thoughtful person. So as to say he knew for what he was doing.

He is saying now to have trust that he would never put me in a situation that would danger my life.

Because some people are getting wrong picture thinking that he did this when we become lovers. But I will show in the next post that it is not so.

He has chosen to be my guardian and he will protect me and he is great full that I give him this opportunity to teach his family values about love and commitment.

Loving you

6- My Letters to Brendan

2010-08-05T19:04:00.000-07:00

I posted this in another website COL on 13 March 2008

I feel guide to bring here some more in relation to Philip and Brendan Nelson.

I send to the reporter, my letter that I have send to Brendan in July 1995.
Again this is a purpes that I am following and I feel guided to bring all this material here together with legal documents. Maybe it is for safe guarding I don't know but it needs to see the light of our COL. Loving you

Here is my letter I send to Brendan in July 1995 after I read his article in Woman’s Day.

Hello Brendan

I hope you don’t mind me sending you this big letter. It’s a collection of 3 letters I wrote since the 21 of May. Now I felt guided again to send them all to you.

I do not intend to hurt anybody but I need to express these thoughts on paper for you to read and evaluate.
I only want to show you another point of view to consider. I wish to tell you my story and share some of my experiences.

After reading your story in the Sunday Telegraph on the 21. 5. I asked Philip’s Spirit what he thought about euthanasia?

“PEOPLE SHOULD HAVE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE HOW THEY WILL DIE

BUT OTHER PEOPLE SHOULD NOT DECIDE FOR THEM HOW THEY WILL DIE”

That was the response he gave me in answer to my question.

On the 9th of March in My dream You, Philip and I went to a beautiful beach and there was a bright gold light shining. The next day I sent a letter to Philip. While wondering if my letter would reach him in time I heard voice say: ‘You will see him and he is going to be fine”. Two hours later Philip rang and asked me to come to hospital in South port.

My dream come true two days later I went to the Gold Coast and you went there on Sunday a week later.

Philip was terrified that he may not survive the treatment that he so much wanted and believed in. He panicked and became defensive as he usually did when something was imposed on him. He wanted to rebelliously escape and to end it all displayed by his behaviour on Sunday.

When I come he said:’ I AM GOING TO HELL’. I responded with:’ I WANT LET YOU BECAUSE I’M GOING TO HEAVEN AND YOU ARE COMING WITH ME’.

I went to Philip because I wanted to be with him and help him in any way I could.

He needed ‘one-to-one’ support. Hospitals are run like army camps, and with all the rules and regulations, patients become objects fitted into the schedule of routine work, no emotions, and no love.

I wanted to stay with him at night, to be there when he woke up, but your mother did not allow me to and used the rules and regulations as an excuse. During that night Philip fell down and bruised his back which added even more discomfort and pain.

In the morning I went to chapel to pray and read a message in the bible about speaking the truth. After breakfast Philip was upset and impatient with your mum for delay.

When she went to make a phone call, I told him not to blame her, because the doctor was not going to put him on the machine for treatment. He said’ I left it for too long”.

I explained that it wasn’t his fault. He was calm about the truth but needed to be sure and asked your mother and Carl. I heard them talking about euthanasia. When you rung, Philip asked me to talk to you about this subject. That night I had another dream about you and Philip, but I did not tell your family about this one. Maybe I’ll tell you one day.

At breakfast your mother said that you could not do it, so before you spoke to Philip I told him ‘Brendan doesn’t want to risk his position, - I understand he said.

This subject was important to Philip and he later asked the other doctor if he knew someone who would do it for him. The doctor did not hesitate and told him that he would do it for him. It was Philips best birthday present even though your TV message pleased him. He said it was nice of you to do this. He was relieved to know that he had an option if the worst were to come.

That evening on his birthday, he sat in bed and asked me to help him select vitamins and medicines. He wanted to live like a new born. He released his protection shield from his emotions, opened his heart and wrote cards to his family.

He held me and for the first time he admitted that he loved me that I deserved to be loved and he wanted to be with me. He forgave me for being jealous of Harmony, and said that she wasn’t the friend he thought she was.

In the next two days he become stronger, more loving and relaxed. Your family said it was because of me, but it was the love and emotional support from his family and friends. Medicine treats physical conditions, but human love, support and honesty work with emotional healing which in turn can change physical well-being if desired by individual.

When I told Philip that I had to go back to Sydney he begged me to stay, but I explained that my children needed me too. On my way back to South port I had another dream of Philip and Tracey. When I returned to the hospital your mother gave me a lecture and told me that she is his mother and she comes first. Her possessive nature was taking over. I was disappointed and regretful that I left him. It was hard to understand what he was saying, but we communicated without words.

That afternoon your mother took me shopping. While she was at the chemist buying medicine, I bought Philip a bunch of pink roses. He put his whole face into the flowers and smelt them for a long time. That evening she didn’t allow me to stay with him again. I was very upset leaving him there. The next morning while I was holding his hands, I felt his thought say ‘Look, the body is not responding, so I have to go now, tell my mother that I love her. Thanks for the roses, put plenty of roses in my coffin’.

He left his body in our presence, your mother first like she wanted to be, and me last to whom he gave his love. Philip and I never had a paper saying that we were married, but by the universal law we were bonded by the love we had. I was his friend and lover and sometimes he called me ‘mum’. Many other things occurred but I have chosen not to write them here. But some strong feelings about your mother I have to express.

I know how much you love her and I respect her strong will and determination, but I didn’t like the way she manipulated, swayed people to her advantage.

Lucky for me I realised many things in that short time. It opened my eyes and helped me understand what Philip felt in his life. He was fighting for his right to choose to be accepted for his choices. She never truly accepted his choices or his friends and she told me herself that she had a problem with me. She pretended to be my friend like ‘bad wolf’ but took of her sheep skin the moment I didn’t do what she wanted.

She told me that I could not put my flowers into the coffin. I ignored her and took one of the 3 bundles I bought for him. I responded to Philips will. I don’t care for people who are not my true friends from the heart and I feel sorry for people who are greedy, possessive, domineering and dishonest. ‘Do unto others and others will do unto you in the future”. It is universal law of karma. Our future is based upon our present actions and our present is a result of our past. By pretending, we let “Philip” think that we done what he wanted but we’ll do it our way is against his freedom.

Parents do this to their children and later children abuse this power as adults. Sometimes they even think that they have right to play God, without understanding God’s love and universal law of freedom to choose.

I was inspired to write this after reading the article in the Woman’s Day (12 June)

The headline struck me:

BRENDAN NELSON”S PRIVET AGONY

MY BROTHER SAID HELP ME DIE

Philip’s spirit re-arranged the letter ‘S’ and show it to me this way:

“MY BROTHERS AID HELP ME DIE” and this way:

“MY BROTHER AIDS HELP ME DIE”

Than he said:

‘I have my picture in the paper now I want them to tell the TRUTH”.

He went on saying:

“They never listened what I said, they never truly accepted who I was. It was my pain, my suffering and my agony that was used to their advantage. That’s not on!”

Philip’s soul is highly evolved, and came into this life to learn many lessons, one of which was to have respect for life. He tried so hard to save his life. I believe that he paid his karma for perhaps committing suicide in last incarnation, when he was a racing driver.

Souls are like actors choosing to play different roles in this physical reality, human drama. If the actor plays a character that is weak, poor or stupid it is only to recognise those aspects as experiences. It is not who the actor is. Often evolved souls will come to experience hard lessons like suffering because they are strong enough to play such roles. People tend to judge actor’s roles and create karma for themselves.

Philip’s spirit is alive and is still playing here on Earth, helping those who helped him. Supporting us achieve our desires. Sometimes he shows his point of view, but allows for freedom of choice, accepting and loving unconditionally. It was important for Philip’s spirit to have this place (where he lived) while he is still attached to this Earthly reality to fulfil his desires.

That is why he helped Roy get his (Philip’s) place to live. I remember that Roy wanted to give up the fight at some stage but stronger impulses made him change his mind.

Once Philip’s spirit expressed to me that he thought you were not doing enough to help Roy, and he was upset that he may have to live at another place where Roy used to live. Finally someone got you to respond and because of your influence it helped him get back his place to live.

He as a spirit influenced the thoughts of some people to help you get the 3 votes, realising your desires. It wasn’t accidental that I send you 3 photos in last letter.

I promised to Philip in hospital to look after Roy. I do it talking to him on the phone almost every day. I have been visiting Roy every week since Philip died. Roy is trying to protect me; he doesn’t want the family to know much about me. I’m not happy about this because it creates wrong picture which is not true.

I see Roy like a father to me. We spend Easter Monday when he told me that you asked about me and he told you that he didn’t see me. I helped him move into Philip’s place. Roy invited me to see the ‘Hello Dolly’ show on his birthday. I slept on Philip’s couch that night, as I wanted to see if I would have any special dreams of Philip. I often go there because I feel Philip’s presence stronger there. I know he is there.

Philip once told me that when everybody left him, Roy was the only one who stayed and helped him. I know that Roy looked after Philip well, I seen it. Philip knew and I know that Roy deserves to be appreciated for his help and the support he gives. He opens his heart in trust to people than he regrets and feels bitter because people don’t appreciate him, so he becomes secretive and distrustful with them.

I’m learning to accept people for what they are to see positive and negative but not to judge those expressions. It is much harder to accept negativity than appreciate positive aspects in others and in ourselves.

Maybe I am naive trusting truth and good in human nature, but its part of my learning experience in life. I also had my pain and sorrow and Philip wants me to tell my story the way it was the truth. I am truthful but some people can not take the truth. For what it was or is, it’s their choice and they often shut their eyes or ears or try to run away from it.

Some people will strongly try to hide the truth but there is very special beauty and light in the truth. No matter how much you suppress, it has it’s own way to come up to the surface and shine for all to see sooner or latter.

I know that I’m not ashamed, afraid or guilty for what I did, perhaps only lately regretful that I didn’t do more and that’s my truth.

How do you stand up on this issue in your life? If you can not be honest and face truth in family matters, how can you become an honest and trustful politician? Hiding reality, showing only one side of the coin, whichever convenient, most politicians do that. Aren’t you standing for new?

I strongly advise that if you haven’t seen the ‘JFK Story” movie with Kevin Costner, watch it, as it is dedicated to those people of the future who stand up for the truth and honesty not manipulation for selfish convenience of power.

In your numerology chart, which I’m sending you, it says that: you can use your eloquence and public speaking for the pursuit of social betterment, your personal power could lead you into situations where you may abuse that power. Materialism can overcome your better judgements and you can become retaliatory and cruel, if crossed you are ready to fight. Your key words are impatience, honesty, determination and confidence. I say ‘be a lover not a fighter’. Read those numerology pages as I’m sure you will find truth and inspiration there for your future actions.

The letters ‘B’,’K’, T’ are lucky for you and associations with people who have this letter in their name are purposeful.

I included my life lesson which shows why I’m doing all this, and who I am. I find it interesting and true. I gave you a lot to read but your personal vibration shows that after your birthday you will have more time to read rest and reflect on life.

Today’s message is a reminder from my first letter:’ it’s not winning or loosing but how honestly the game is played”. I see many tests ahead of you still before higher realms decide to give you a’ Big Job’. Spiritual Elders know a design for life on Earth. Many of us choose to participate to fulfil such plan, but before we are consciously ready for such job, we are tested on our abilities in handling such responsibilities. I see that you are tested how you deal with a little issue a family affair like fulfilling Philip’s in trusted will as an executor.

If you are unable to respect and fulfil the wishes of your brother, how will you be able to handle the universal affair representing people who are cheated by big boys with lots of money and power? How you play the game will have an impact on the life in the future.

Honestly answer to yourself one question. Have you respected and fulfilled the will and job appointed by Philip and realised his wishes or have you manifested the wishes of other people you know who manipulated you to use your power in executing what was convenient for them?

Its long question so simply – Have you done what Philip wanted you to do or you have done what others told you to do?

Philip’s spirit said again-“They never listened to me when I was alive, they don’t listen to me now and did not listen to my will after I was gone, I will not stop until my will is done, and they will pay for it”. Some people think that because the physical body is gone that is the end to it, well it’s not finished yet”.

Do you honestly think that Philip’s funeral should have been paid from the gift which Philip left for Roy in his Will? There were other gifts: the motorbike and Van which legally were not excluded from being sold and money from their sale used to pay his debts.

I don’t think that Philip lied when he told some people that he sold the motorbike to you and that you owed him $3000 and that he prepaid for his funeral. You made a deal to hide this arrangement from your wife, so in the Will he wrote ‘gift”.

I know Philip liked to have things in order. He knew he was dying for a long time and he had time to make the necessary arrangements. Except that those arrangements were not executed by other people who were greedy and possessive.

Things obtain thru manipulation will never bring luck.

Everybody knows that the law in Australia stinks. With your family knowledge of the law and politics you decided to pay for the funeral from the gift which was given to the poorest Roy.

He has chosen to be the sacrificial lamb to help you learn your lesson in honesty and responsibility.

In the future if this is how you are going to represent the population and help divide the wealth, big for rich and nothing to those who deserve it, sorry I’m not going to vote and either will many others. Your heart has to be the voice of right and wrong, not being manipulated or swayed by others for their convenience and power.

I remember when I talked to you on the phone from South port, you said to me:’ you are doing a great job there”. I said nothing to your praise, because I only did what my heart felt was right.

I’m sorry to say that I can’t praise you for what you have done with the Will. I don’t think you have done a good job there. This is my point of view which is also shared by other people.

You may think that this is not true that I’m wrong. If so then accept my apology with love and light. B

Ps. I am not your enemy I feel and call you my Brother (in law not to be). If you wish I would like to hear from you. If not, please put trust in Life beyond, it will help you greatly. Start listening to Philip, he loves you and will guide you through books or intuitive thoughts.

God bless you and your family with love & light Barbara

5-Philip's & Roy's letter to Brendan

2010-08-05T18:22:00.000-07:00

I posted this in another website COL on 12 March 2008

This part 3 what I send to the reporter I put here as separate post.

I know that it is true as all that is said here and I like to share it with you.
This is a 3 page letter that Roy Harries written on 4 August 1995 when he felt presence of Philips spirit telling him to write this letter. Roy asked me if he should send it to Brendan.

After I read the letter I knew it was how Philip would express his feelings when he was angry.
I told Roy that he should send it. I asked Roy if I can have a copy of this letter and here it is:

Dear Brendan

You once asked me if I got any messages from Philip to let you know.

Well I did in the morning of the 4 August.

I was fast asleep in a deep state of rest, was very warm in bed, when I was brought out of the deep sleep by feeling icy cold, I was in a type of slumber so I moved, by doing so I felt the warmth come back, and started to go back to sleep. When I felt the icy cold again, this time I could fell Philip talking to me:- Get up I want you to write a letter.

Than I said to him I’ll do it in the morning.

‘NO HE SAID, DO IT NOW, YOU WILL FORGET

AND I WILL NOT BE HERE IN THE MORNING’.

I got up, the time was 2-30 AM and this is what he told me to write to you,

I am only his messenger here.

Friday Morning 4 August 2-30 AM

BRENDAN

YOU ARE A BLOODY IDIOT AND HAVE LOST THE PLOT. I COULD

HAVE BEEN A GREAT HELP TO YOU BUT YOU WISHED NO TO BELIEVE.
I WILL NOW STAND BACK AND OBSERVE YOU MAKE A FOOL OF YOURSELF.

YOU AND THE WHOLE FAMILY ARE MAKING HELL FOR YOURSELVES AND WILL NOT FIND PEACE UNTIL YOU ALL REALISE WHAT WRONG YOU HAVE DONE, MAKING OTHERS SUFFER THROUGH YOUR GREED.

IF YOU THINK YOU ARE SMART THINK AGAIN SO MANY PEOPLE THINK THAT WHEN

I DIED THAT WAS IT
WRONG WRONG WRONG.

I WILL NOT REST UNTIL I HAVE SEEN YOU ALL RECTIFY YOUR MISTAKES.

MY LOVING FRIENDS ARE DOING A FAR BETTER JOB THAN YOU.

WHY DIDN’T YOU CARRY MY WISHES. YOU HAVE A LOT TO ANSWER FOR NOW

FOOL, FOOL, FOOL.

NO BEING IS THAT SMART IN PHYSICAL FORM.

MY FRIENDS KNOW ALL YOU KNOW AS I AM IN TOUCH WITH THEM AND LET THEM

KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON.

WITH ALL YOUR BULL SHIT ON T.V. YOU WOULD NEVER MAKE AN ACTOR.

STICK TO WHAT YOU KNOW BEST NOT TRY TO BE A SOMEBODY
TRYING TO BE A SOMEBODY YOU BECOME A NOBODY.

BEFORE I WAS MADE TO LEAVE THIS PLANET I WAS TOLD OF YOUR FUTURE

AND WHAT I WAS TOLD IS NOW COMING TO PASS FOR FUCK SAKE LISTEN!

BE AWARE OF WHAT YOU THINK OF THE AFTER LIFE.

MY FRIENDS ARE NOT OUT TO GET YOU,
YOU WILL GET YOURSELF IN THE END
IF YOU DON’T RECTIFY THE FAMILY MISTAKES OR YOURS.

I AM SEEING MORE THAN YOU ALL CARE TO REALISE BE AWARE.

YOU ALL HAVE PROVED TO ME WHO YOU ARE SELFISH LOT OF BASTARDS.

YOU DID NOT CARE ABOUT ME OR SPIKE YOU MAY THINK YOU DID
YOU ALL HAVE PROVEN THIS TO ME AS I LIVE THROUGH ‘SPIKE’.

TAKE CARE MY EARTHLY BROTHER

I DO NOT WISH YOU HARM, OR MY FRIENDS, YOU WILL HARM YOURSELF

BE AWARE

PHILIP AND SPIKE 3.24 AM SPIKE IS NOT JUST A DOG

HE IS SPIRIT SEND TO TEST.

Here is the letter in original form:

Philip has progressed in his growth and this was expression soon after he died but he was very strong and still is.

On Saturday 15 March would be his birthday, so this is for him. I done this with love

4- Philip story part 2

2010-08-04T19:26:00.000-07:00

Now this is part 2- of the story that I posted in COL on 12 March 2008

Here is some more what happened that is not in the letter that I wrote to Brendan in July 1995 after I read his article in magazine: Woman’s Day 12 June 1995

BRENDAN NELSON’S PRIVET AGONY

MY BROTHER SAID HELP ME DIE

In this article he actually admits to helping patients with terminal illness that was discussed with family members. And he said that he could be prosecuted for it.

Well there is nothing better than confession which is good for the soul.

On 14 March 1995 from hospital bed in South Port Philip told me to ring Brendan on his privet mobile number and ask if he can help Philip die.

When I talked to Brendan he said’ You know I can not do this’ and I trusted what he said.

On 15 March Philip got another idea, he told me he wanted to live because he wanted to be with me. Yes he changed his mind.

But 3 days later Brendan visited Philip in this hospital I was not there that weekend as I went back to Sydney to be with my children.

When I come back on Thursday 23 March Philip was very week and at lunch time his mother Patricia took me to local shopping centre. She was a registered nurse working for Adelaide hospital. She asked me to wait for her in front of a chemist where she went to get some prescribed medication.

That evening she told me to leave the room and go to sleep. I wanted to stay with Philip all night as I thought that he may die and I wanted to be near him. But she was very determent that I go.

Next morning when I come to his room he was in a sitting position supported by pillows. He was breading but his eyes were closed. I sat on the bed holding and massaging his hand when Patricia came in. She sat on the chair and started reading some magazines.

Than I saw that he opened one of his eyes and I heard his voice saying in my mind:

"Look my body is not responding, I have to go soon. Tell my mother I love her".

I started crying and did not tell her this straight away so he said again with a commanding voice:
TELL HER I LOVE HER.
So I turned to Patricia and told her what I just heard in my mind. She got up, stood next to him and touched his head when he took last breath.

Than his voice in my mind said ‘let’s get out of here’. So I left the room when the nurses come in. As I was walking the corridor he said’ Ring Roy’ and I saw at the end of the corridor telephone so I told Roy what happened. He was it Sydney taking care of Philips dog ‘Spike.

From hospital I went to the beach, walking, crying, and listening to songs. I was calming my emotions. When I returned to hospital room Philips sister Tracey, Father Dez and Patricia’s boyfriend arrived from Adelaide. They were driving all night and were disappointed that did not come earlier. Family arranged for cremation of Philips body on Monday. So we went to stay at the motel until Monday.

I felt Philip’s spirit presence that weekend, he was not in that dead body somewhere in the morgue and he was not in the body that went into flames. He was with us free & happy.

He had special’ dark sens of humour, so he was joking to me a lot that made me laugh. Sometimes in most inconvenient situations like during his funeral. In the evening Philips father drove me to the station in the Van. As the car was driving away I saw Philip seating on the passenger seat next to the driver, his elbow touching the bottom of open window.

His spirit drove with Family back to Sydney in Philips Van that in the Will he ‘gave’ to Eric, mum’s boyfriend.

Yes the pensioner Philip two weeks before his death gives away his big possessions and didn't pay for his funeral!!! Well he did what his mother wanted him to do.

Philip was not angry with her, he forgave her by saying’ Tell her I love her’.

He forgives but not forgets that she took his bank card and arranged with Brendan to take money and give nothing to Roy. She rung Roy one day and recorded her voice on answering machine saying that it was her who did this to him.
Here is Roy's will that he made with Philip giving possessions to each other and changed Philips Will .

3- Philip's Story part 1

2010-08-04T19:09:00.000-07:00

I wrote this post in COL on 12 March 2008 and now share here.

Dear Hearts
Last few days have been so strange. I felt again as someone was guiding me to contact the reporter and after speaking to one I send him this what I will share here. I know that now is time for me to fulfil my promise to Roy and in a way to Philip as this will be evident to you in the letter I bring here from Philip to his Brother Brendan Nelson. All this will make more sens soon and is part of the plan design to be fulfilled.
I was delaying this as I thought I don't want to destroy someones life but now again I feel that I need to do this.

Here is letter I send today to a reporter:

In 1993 I was learning and practicing crystal balancing therapy and meditation as my hobby. My friend introduced me to Philip Nelson who had Aids and was experimenting with different unconventional therapy treatments to heal his body. We become friends and later lovers as our emotional connection grew stronger.
He was a patient at Prince Alfred hospital when his family arrived from Adelaide on 8 March and took him to change the will. On that day Philip introduced me to his family and we had some pictures taken before they took him back to hospital.

Philip told me that he sold his motor bike to Brendan and that he will pay more money later. He said that Brendan wanted to hide this transaction from his wife so in the ‘Will’ Philip wrote that he gave motor bike to him. Philip was also relived that he had now more money in the bank for his friend Roy who was taking care of dog Spike.

I was with Patricia, Philip’s mother in Gold Coast Hospital where Brendan put him to avoid press. Brendan came to visit Philip on Sunday19 March 95. On Wednesday 23 March Patricia went with me to chemist at local shopping centre to get some prescribed medication. That night she did not allowed me to stay in the room. Next morning I come first to his room and found that his body was still alive but not responding. He died around 8 am on 24 March 1995. I promised Philip that I would help Roy Harris and I did until he died.

Roy & I shared spiritual understanding about life after death. He came for group meditations that I held at my home. We talked about spirit guides and discus dreams.

Roy told me that few years earlier Philip and Roy had made wills giving the possessions to each other and that greedy Philips family made him to change the will. He gave me the copy of the wills after he accidentally found out that Philips bank account was closed and money withdrawn by Brendan.

Roy was a pensioner and dog Spike often needed medical attention that was expensive.

I was with Roy when Spike had to be put down and this was recorded by channel 9 morning show. Roy gave me that recording which shows the love he had for this dog.
Roy contacted legal centre who send letter to Brendan asking to restore founds in the bank.
Brendan send a replay but did not agree to restore the money.
One day Roy told me that he had a visit from Philip (spirit) at night and was told to write a letter to Brendan. When Roy showed me the letter I knew how Philip reacted when he was upset or angry and I was convinced of authenticity of this letter.

Roy send this letter to Brendan and gave me copy to keep. He also gave me other papers and documents asking that I write in the future about Philip & him. I am now fulfilling that promise I gave to Roy as I feel guided to share this information. I wrote untold story about Philip for Internet and it may be included in a book that will be published in future.
In 1995 after reading astrology chart of Brendan I told Patricia that he may become prime minister one day, she replayed sceptically that he would have to go to Federal Politics which he did two months later.

I wrote some letters to Brendan in 1995 showing my disappointment how he dealt with Roy.

I told him that ‘Winning or losing the game is much less important than the fairness with which it is played and that the heart has to be the voice of right and wrong.

As I watched speech Brendan made to the nation and heard him spoke about the book he was given in 1995 ‘Going Back” I thought of Philip & Roy how they should be apologised. Now is the time to go back to 1995 for Brendan Nelson and his family to reach in their hearts and say’ I am sorry.

Some people think that when person died that’s the end of the story but fortunately there is growing evidence and old written teaching that opens now people to awareness that there is more that meets the eye. Some have to be convinced of it like this.

2-In Memory of Philip

2010-08-04T06:41:00.000-07:00

I wrote this and posted on another website COL on March 17 2008

This post is dedicated to 'Philip untold story".

I felt last week that Philip wanted me to write this post to show that he was thoughtful and our union was a result of my choice. This picture of Philip I took in 1993

That year my friend Alina rang me asking if I can do crystal balancing, for young man who had Aids.

I didn’t know much about aids than and I never met person who had Aids before but I had patients with cancer who got well so I wanted to help this man.

Philip came on his motor bike and as he walked in my lunch room I thought ‘what a waste’, he was young and good looking.

As we drunk coffee I asked him how he become infected he answered - thru blood transfusion. That satisfied my curiosity than but it was not the truth as he reviled truth later.

There was instant attraction but it was not in my mind to get involved with somebody who had Aids.
Philip was born on 15 March so his Sun conjunct my Moon in second house and his Moon was also there, his Mars was in my seven house. His Pluto and North Node conjunct my Sun in Eight House.

My Sun, Mars, Mercury and Pluto were also in his second house, my North Node conjunct his Jupiter in seventh. This shows that we had strong emotional connection.

Philip showed me where he lived and offered to take me riding on his motor bike. We soon become friends and often talked on the phone.

One day I had a crystal healing with another therapist and straight after that session I went to see Philip.

I felt as if something was lifted from me and I needed to be held in his arms. We kissed and cuddle but didn’t have sex than.

Some time later Philip brought me some reading material and said that I need to read this to know more about Aids and how it can be transmitted and so on. He wanted me to be educated about it if we were to become more intimate. I wanted to be with him but I still had reservations.

At that time friend gave me a small book about St Francis of Assisi. And in that book I read that Francis met “leper’ but he recognised that it was Jesus dressed as this beggar, so Francis without hesitation hug him.

This book was the braking point for me as I recognised the spirit inside Philip, dressed in his body and I released the fear as I knew that I would not get sick and that I was protected.

When we become lovers Philip told me how he got sick and more about his life. When he was young boy living in Adelaide he was molested by man in a public toilet. As a teenager he become rebellious and got involved in drugs and gang rape. He testified in court against his friends who were jailed.

Philip come to Sydney and become a male prostitute at popular Kings Cross suburb. He had some male relationships that took him out of that place and he was living for some time in Byron Bay.

Philip told me that he liked woman and was attracted to woman but found it hard to communicate with them. He said that it was much easier to have male friends. He told me that he like me and wanted to spend more time with me but we both were free to meet other people.

At that time I received from my mother 5 thousand dollars and I wanted to go to USA for a seminar. Philip suggested that we could use this money and travel around Australia.

But I had my mind set and I was going to San Francisco, on the way stopping in Kauai Island to see the largest crystal ‘Shiva lingam in Hindu Monastery.

At that time as my friendship with Philip was growing I was well attuned to my spirit guides and asked them why Philip chosen to be sick. My guide told me that in last incarnation Philip was a racing driver and committed suicide. Now in this life his soul was learning to value the life.

My guides never told me what to do. It was as if I was guided to make my own choices. They would always say that for whatever I choose was the right choice that there was no right or wrong choice it only served purpose.

When I was on the Kauai Island I wished that Philip was with me. I thought that if he would have come he could have been healed. But my guides told me that Philip will die around his birthday because there was another incarnation waiting for him. He departed week after his birthday but two years later.

Before Philip took me to the airport he gave me a bag full of condoms. I laugh and said that I was going on a spiritual journey not to sleep around and that I don’t need this. He insisted saying: you may meet someone there and you may get Aids and than you’re going to blame it on me.

And Philip was right because in Hawaii I meet Steven and last night on that Island I spend with him so it was useful having this protection with me.

When I come back from my journey one day I was sleeping in Philips home and dreamt that this gorgeous man with blond long hair that reminded me of Steven was carrying me on his hands into heaven.
When I woke up I said to Philip that I had wonderful dream, he asked if he was in it.
I answered: unfortunately not!
But only now 15 years after that dream I am wondering if it was Philips Spirit that I saw in this dream.

Before I met Philip I saw in a paper article about giant sculpture of a horseman being carved in the South Dakota Mountains. This mountain was transformed in memory of a ‘Crazy Horse’ Sioux Indian.

I cut out the article with the picture as it was reminding me of my spirit that I felt like riding white horse in my vision from 1988.

When I was with Philip I found in his draw the some article cut out of that newspaper, I was shocked and ask him how he got this article. Philip replayed that his friend Roy Harris gave him this article, and that Roy was shown in a vision that they were the Sioux Indians and that Philip was the Crazy Horse.

The story of Crazy Horse is well known in America as he was fighting for independence and Carter could not catch him. For me it was interesting that Crazy Horse had a wife who was sick and in order to help his wife he went to army trying to get medicine to heal her but he was captured and killed.

I wondered if there was connection from that life, why I was helping Philip to get well in this life.
Philip was a fighter, and he was getting angry or upset sometimes that was a challenge for me.

I remember that one day I called him’ Puff’ and he grabbed my hand, looked straight in my eyes and said:’ don’t you ever call me that because I am not!’
I think that our relationship was important in helping him choose who he wanted to be in the future.

Roy was a good friend to Philip but was not his lover. Philip told me that Roy was like a father to him.
Roy was older and he liked young boys, but with Philip it was special friendship. Roy enjoyed when other people of gay community thought that Philip and he were together.
This picture of Roy & me was taken in 1996.

Roy also told me that he was shown past life where He and Philip were gladiators in Rome and they were very intolerant towards gay man than, so now in this life they needed to learn this karma lesson.

For me it was also a lesson of accepting people as they are because I never new gay man and I was learning not to be judgmental about sexuality.

When Philip was in hospital days before he died I went to church, and ask God if what I was feeling for Philip was Love or Compassion. The voice said: You have to find this answer inside.
I was wondering about this and now I think that it was both.
This picture of Philip was taken on his birthday 15 March 1995 in Gold Coast hospital .

When in hospital Philip & I listened to radio that was plying the song ‘I will always Love you’ by Whitney Huston.
Philip turned to me and said; when I am gone this song is for you and I like you to play it on my funeral’.

I heard this song on radio again not long ago. If you hear it it’s Philip saying hello to you too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGC003Xz3CY&NR=1

1-Philip with brother Brendan & Family

2010-08-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

This blog is dedicated to Philip Nelson, his dog Spike and Philip's friend Roy Harries.
They have pass on from this life but are remembered here. Roy told me that I will write about them one day.

I wrote some posts on another website before but now feel guided to create this blog in their memory.

In 1993 I was learning and practicing crystal balancing therapy and meditation as my hobby. My friend Alina introduced me to Philip Nelson who had Aids and was experimenting with different unconventional therapy treatments to heal his body. We become friends and lovers as our emotional connection grew stronger.

Philip was a patient at Prince Alfred hospital when his family arrived from Adelaide on 8 March 95 and took him to change the Will that He made 3 years earlier. On that day Philip introduced me to his family and we had some pictures taken before they took him back to hospital.

On this picture I'm seating next to Philip with dog Spike and his brother Brendan Nelson.

On second picture Philip is with his family:
sister Tracey, mum Patricia and her boyfriend Eric McCauely
on other side of Philip is brother Brendan and father Desmond Nelson